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"Simply do this: Be still and lay aside all thoughts of what you are and what God is; all concepts you have learned about the world; all images you hold about yourself. Empty you mind of everything it thinks is either true or false, or good or bad, of every thought it judges worthy, and all the ideas of which it is ashamed. Hold onto nothing. Do not bring with you one thought the past has taught, not one belief you learned before from anthing. Forget this world, forget this course, and come with wholly empty hands unto your God..."



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Sunday, March 1, 2009

WOW!!!

WOW! We have completed the first round. The first fifty lessons of A Course in Miracles; complete with the integrative review. How do you feel?

I feel awesome! Read the lessons through, again; back to back, right now… CLICK ON THE FIRST FIFTY,link right NOW and READ all fifty!

 Isn’t that powerful? Can’t you feel the spirit of Atonement? Yes,

If have been showing up each day and merely taking direction, you have chosen yourself to be on Jesus’ crew. You have answered the call. Can’t you feel it? You’re not alone…. There are mighty companions along side you. You have a sense that you know, somewhere inside, Who walks with you… Yes?!

In those 50 lessons, in sixty days, you literally shed the skin of self you knew when you started 60 days ago. You are brand new.

A newborn world lies before us now. We are its ministers. We are the miracle workers that light the world with God’s Love.

Can you feel it?

I am completely in love with the statements that wrap-up the section we just went through.

I am sustained by the Love of God. As I listen to God’s Voice, I am sustained by His Love. As I open my eyes, His Love lights up the world for me to see. As I forgive, His Love reminds me that His Son is sinless. And as I look upon he world with the vision He has given me, I remember that I am His Son.”

 

That’s where we launch today from. Brand new in mind, it is simple to follow that we are, indeed, the light of the world. So here’s the mantra:

I am the light of the world.

That is my only function.

That is why I am here.

 

 As we awaken the whole world awakens, since the world was never more than a misperception. As perception becomes whole, the single mind sees only wholeness.

Today we are ready to see with Inner Vision. We are at realizing that "physical sight" was merely an illusion of being in the dark.

The Light has come and it is time…

I’ll leave you with this, from the Clarification of Terms:

“The end is sure and guaranteed by God…You are a stranger here. But you belong to Him Who love you as He love Himself. Ask but my help to roll the stone away, and it is done according to His Will. We have begun the journey…Be now afraid. We only start again an ancient journey long ago begun…upon a road we traveled on before and lost our way a little while. And now we try again. Our new beginning has the certainty the journey lacked till now…Look up and see His Word among the stars, where He has set you Name along wit His…  and find you certain destiny…Let us wait here in silence, and kneel down an instant in our gratitude to him Who called to us and helped us hear His Call. And then let us arise and go in faith along the way to Him…”

I LOVE YOU!

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

NOTHIN' LIKE GRATITUDE TO KEEP MIRACLE-MINDED ATTENTION ON GOD!

God, You are my One Source; my Only Goal, my Purpose and Meaning. May every voice but Yours be still in me. May the Holy Spirit which lights my mind help me remember my only purpose here is the salvation of the world; to  shine with  joy and teach only love, to forgive and see things differently, to give of myself as You give, and to be truly helpful. May I remember to keep the eternal light of Heaven burning brightly, shining forth for all to see and enter here, together, the arc of peace, into the gates of Heaven, now...

This world is false. Whatever the body’s eyes look on is false. It doesn’t matter if it is seemingly ‘good’ or if it seems awful. It’s not real. So there’s no point in trying to ‘fix’ or ‘change’ anything. This is what the Course means by ‘tragic in time’. Trying to affect our peace of mind by manipulating situations, events, people, even thoughts, won’t work. 

The world is false. There is no power in it. It is a projection of images outward from a story in the mind. The script for the story of separation has been written... That instant the Atonement was given. The Atonement undid it in that very instant. When we accept the Atonement for ourself, instantly  the mind is tuned to the frequency of Spirit, now reflecting a corrected version of rhe world story: the forgiven or real world…

So the only choice, the only chance at change in the world, is to let go the world we see in favor of vision. This takes place in the mind. The alignment with Spirit activates the power of the mind to the correction principle, healing miscreation by healing misperception.

So it is to the mind we must go, requesting the Holy Spirit as reinterpreter and guide, surrendering all we thought we knew and forgiving it as false, in favor of the truth.

Everything in the world is designed to take attention away from God.

That is its purpose.

The Miracle is designed to zero attention on God. Accepting our brothers as our saviors, we see we are one Mind of one Spirit, of One Source.

We bring our thinking under Jesus' guidance... A Course in Miracles is His gift to us, which is a commplete thought reversal curriculum that systematically trains our minds to return our attention to God. Through the function of forgiveness of the false, we are literally training our minds on Spirit .. Forgiveness is the most powerful tool at our disposal. It is the fast-track to the peace of Heaven Now.

Forgiveness literally realigns the mind to correction and the miracle can do what it does, collapsing time, visiting charity upon forgiver and forgiven. It virtually lifts us from the structure of time/space we were in before and drops us back in to a healed perspective that it is impossible to measure from within the perspective of the problem, well, because it is a miracle and we simple can’t understand it from within the time/space construct.

So, say for instance, I am on a seemingly direct path to destruction, say with booze, (go figure), or a destructive relationship... You know one.

Then, say I ask for a miracle and give over my life to deity. I literally die to that place and time life. The Holy Spirit picks me up and drops me into a time and space further on in my correction learning curriculum, that is appropriate for healing now. In other words, an experience totally unavailable to me, had I stayed the course I was on without accepting the miracle.  The miracle, the Course tells us, saves ‘thousands of years’ that correction would have taken otherwise.

If you’re ever having trouble coming up with the first item on your gratitude list for the day, start here! You’ve already been graced a thousand years! I love it!

Yes, I said Gratitude List.

One thing I have learned is that making gratitude lists instead of ‘to-do’ lists, gets a lot more accomplish and keeps being truly helpful at the forefront of my mind. Whereas making ‘to-do’ lists accomplishes nothing at all. It is a delay tactic of future-izing the past and making someone, usually myself, feel guilty. I’m sure you know what I mean.

So, how about it? Start making a gratitude list whenever you start thinking you need to make a to-do list. Everything will change. Gratitude places you at the disposal of the miracle. Watch the world eclipse in its light.

 Start here;

1.  I am grateful for God.

2.  I am grateful for the Atonement

3. I am grateful for Jesus

4. I am grateful for A Course in Miracles.

5. I am grateful for willingness

6. I am grateful for the transformation of my mind through forgiveness.

7. I am grateful for my brothers, who witness to Who I am, and that I witness for.

8. I am grateful for peace, now, and love always, in all ways.

9. I am grateful to see my brother guiltless and see his innocence shine.

10. I am grateful, for developing the habit of engaging with God.

11. I am grateful to have God as my only goal.

12. I am grateful I live serenely in a state of deep abiding joy; to live in freedom and happiness and clarity and right-minded willingness.

13. I am grateful to accept my appointment as a teacher of God and count myself amongst the ministers of God and the saviors of the world.

Thank you.

I love you.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

DAD'S BLESSING

Let me bless you with a story about the light of the world:

Last night I read a memoir of my father’s life in mind… What I mean is that he shares his belief structure and development over a lifetime of more than 80 years. He describes his willing in-doctrine-ization into the thought system of his familial and religious structure; the specifics and ‘specia’l-izations inherent to it. He shares his beliefs, interpretations, acceptances, justifications, denials and faithfulness. 

The story is a good one; well researched and well written. It is an honest account of one man’s life, written from the perspective Self-love; from one who has faced himself; evaluated the true from the false and forgiven all that didn’t meet the criteria of peace.

I found reading this account compelling and healing. Also very intimate. I experienced the joining that comes with absolute faithfulness, meeting brother to brother in the truth of Who God created as Himself.

As I read along the path my father described, I experience myself reading as if from his own perspective, like I was in his mind, watching his movie of his life perspective…

Then, in a holy instant I fused with him as Christ, united in the purpose of the recognition of the truth. His story was my story. His mind, my own...

Dad tells how he began to ask of himself the honest, the real questions deep within about life and God and self. He asked for the truth. And the path was set. 

Turns out the Holy Spirit is hanging out in the ether of the walls and shelves and words and minds in the BYU library, just as everywhere else, available by sincere asking, and asking honestly. 

My father then shares the progression of this internal inquiry. He proceed to show how his honest request led him to A Course in Miracles and to the curriculum that would reinterpret and give meaning to his purpose in life. His gratitude for the forgiveness, miracles and healing received by accepting the Atonement for himself, is obvious and cannot be missed as it gives light to the glorious gratitude that praises God…

I experienced the lifting-out of the construct of world and story into the shared, healed perspective of one-mind which forgiveness reveals… Gratitude and grandeur and beauty and magnitude spilt tears of appreciation and joy and light and love and blessed the world, as I finished reading… yum.

Thanks Dad for your integrity and your willingness; for forgiving, sharing and joining. Thanks for lighting my mind and every mind and saving the world.

Thanks for being my mighty companion on the road back home. I am blessed beyond measure for your sincerity, communion and love.

I LOVE YOU.

The Course is relentless in reminding us that there is no world so not to look to it for truth. Look to it for the false veil we have drawn across the face of Christ and the Real world.

Don’t ever forget~ the world we are looking upon, without exception, is reflecting what we believe we are. It reflects the image made of the self by the mistaken identity construct of the mind; which is by definition an attack/victim image, which is actually an attack on what God created perfect as Himself. This is the same as to say it is an attack on God, who, being only love cannot attack or be attacked. In other words, we are to ourselves a case of mistaken identity

No worries…

What is not true is but illusion and illusion has no subsistence in the truth. This is the code of the Atonement; that false will not stand.

An image will never satisfy, will always fall short, want more, and betray the ones it claims to love… yada yada yada… Well, you know the drill. You’ve rehearsed it for millennia.  Miracles reveal a different Self, one already complete, healed and whole, joined in purpose with all creation, and one in God.

When the choice for truth is made this world is seen as the flimsy overlay on the overhead-projector of Christ Mind, and recognized as merely false.

“It is but the first few steps along the right way that seem hard, for you have chosen, although you still may think you can go back and make the other choice. This is not so. A choice made with the power of Heaven to uphold it cannot be undone. Your way is decided. There will be nothing you will not be told, if you acknowledge this… and so you and your brother stand, here in this holy place, before the veil of sin that hangs between you and face of Christ. Let it be lifted! Raise it together with your brother, for it is but a veil that stands between you…and peace has reached you even here, before the veil. Think what will happen after. The love of Christ will light your face, and shine from it into a darkened world that needs the light. And from this holy place He will return with you, not leaving it nor you. You will become His messenger, returning Him unto Himself… Think of the loveliness that you will see, who walks with Him! …” (T-22. IV)

Give over your life to the Holy Spirit, bring all of your decisions under Jesus’ guidance and join us at the branching of the road as we lift the veil of falseness together. The light is on… you can see the lighthouse from there… just look and you will see ~above all else you want to see…

I LOVE YOU!

 

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

SAVING THE WORLD ONE LIGHT AT A TIME

I am deeply in love with God.

God Love is the constant of my life. I feel it even when I misplace myself in my life and play god with plans and guilt, I feel His Love deep within tugging in my sleeve, pulling me back home. This is the Holy Spirit, awaiting with a smile behind my craziness, a sane and clear perspective to the insanity I am here to forgive… reminding me of my purpose.

 I was sitting with Jesus in my meditation this morning. I was lifted from my self in the frequency of wholehearted gratitude for this unending Love and how it is always reaching me exactly where I’m at…

 I love A Course in Miracles! It has given me the context for sanity in the mixed-up, insane world, where nothing has ever really made sense to me.

From moment one, word one, the Course instantaneously called-up the memory of truth within my mind, and though at the time I first began my relationship with the Course, and I couldn’t wrap my mind around what it was that was so compelling, I was drawn unthinkingly ~ It was my first experience of not trying to fit what I was experiencing into one of my ready-made constructs… I intrinsically knew it was something entirely the opposite of everything I was familiar with. It was like landing in a parallel universe where all the symbols are the same but the meanings~ well, had meaning… I recognized the Voice for God woven into the concepts and applications, as I recognize that Voice within my right-mind.

Then a few years ago in time, which has now collapsed in on itself, as it seems that it was going on all along, I fell madly in love with Jesus! I’m not really sure how it happened. I didn’t seem to be wired-up for the holy-roller, born-again, ‘Jesus love’s you’ stuff.

Yet, here I am: born again, rockin &rollin’ with holy brotherhood of saviors of the world, and hand in hand with Jesus.

Well I am attempting the impossible here to speak of what is actually unspeakable appreciation to Jesus for his unwavering companionship. Yet I am so lifted and inspired that the belly of the share within me, beckons to be expressed. Honored by his living, visible, expression of love through A Course in Miracles, the perfect guidance inward to the Voice we share with God and the eternal love that sustains us as One, I am devoted to his ministry, which is my own.

Who’d have thought?

Thank you Jesus!

Here’s what he states clearly in the Clarification of Terms in response to our ego based thought system:

“Your questions have no answer, being made to still God's Voice, which asks of everyone one question only: "Are you ready yet to help Me save the world?"  Ask this instead of what the ego is, and you will see a sudden brightness cover up the world the ego made.  No miracle is now withheld from anyone.  The world is saved from what you thought it was.  And what it is, is wholly uncondemned and wholly pure.”

Are we ready to help Him save the world?

I AM!

Honestly, after attempting things, ‘my way’, getting no closer to happiness, and then joining with Jesus and having my heart and mind cracked wide open to Love’s light, I can say without reservation, this is my bliss! It is my one purpose which I joyously fulfill through forgiveness and appreciation! You are my one self. How can I be helpful?

Let’s join in the stillness born of innocent perception and ask candidly; ‘Am I ready? Are we ready to stand in singularity for God? Are we ready to join the mighty companions as saviors of the world? Are we willing to lay aside all our own ideas and come with open hearts and empty hands in order to experience the peace and joy of God? Are we willing to teach only love and know that love is ours and we are love?

I AM! ~ Sign up here!

I LOVE YOU.

 

Saturday, January 31, 2009

~EVERYTHING GOES MY WAY~

Everything goes my way! 

Here’s why: I have invented the world I see.

‘Everything goes my way’, is one of my favorite mantras and directives. It always reminds me that nothing is ever happening without my say so. I started saying this all the time when I realized that I am not a victim, EVER. I look within and project out what I would see there.

Therefore, whatever is happening is my fault.

Upon first recognition of this fact, the tendency was to judge myself, feel overwhelmed, guilty, ashamed and hopeless. I could not make thing stop going wrong. I sabotaged every “good” thing that showed up… anything to restore a sense of futility and pointlessness…

Then l I got it! Yeah, duh! My invention of this world is meaningless. Identified with it, I am completely powerless to make good out of $h!t.

I recognized my total dependence on GOD! ~YEAH!

Talk about AH HA! What naturally followed was a piercing willingness to look within to the part of the mind that remembers God and can create with Him.

Jesus tells us in chapter 6 “The Lessons of Love” in the ‘Lessons of the Holy Spirit section that once we have taken the first step we will be helped. Once we have chosen what we cannot complete alone, we are no longer alone…

He’s got it wired for all things working together for good.

This is the reason I can rest assured that everything goes my way. My way is God’s way.

I signed on with Jesus and follow Him. He gave a new blue print to follow as a creator. It’s called A Course in Miracles.

When you’re coming out of being scared of your own shadow; operating from a premise of fear, looking toward the light, it’s nice to have some specific direction. Isn’t it. 

So here they are from chapter 6 “The Lessons of Love” in the ‘Lessons of the Holy Spirit:

To have, give all to all…

To have peace, teach peace to learn it…

Be vigilant only for God and His kingdom…

If you want to give yourself a real treat today. And I suggest you do, go read this most awesome section and join my love for it.

 I love you!

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

WE THE MINISTERS OF GOD ~LIKE OBAMA AND ME AND YOU…

Isn’t this just the yummiest of moments in so-called time, to be a minister for God; to join ranks with the mighty companions of miracle workers on the journey without distance to the place we never left (God), navigating Love’s waters through fear’s cloudy sky? We just absolutely have to trust Jesus’ instruments to pilot the way, without which we would be lost.

 I love it!

And isn’t if fun to see who shows up to take their place among the ministers…

 "ALL are called but few choose to listen. Therefore, they do not choose RIGHT." The "chosen ones" are merely those who choose right SOONER.

 As I listened to President Obama's inaugural address, yesterday, I was warmed by the sincerity and what I agree to be the accuracy of what faces us as a human race, reaching for the highest in us all as One World ~ One Mind.

A theme of my own this year has been "It is time to put away childish things..." I had to smile when Obama quoted it in his a speech. PERFECT.

He actually said, “We remain a young nation, but in the words of scripture, the time has come to set aside childish things. The time has come to reaffirm our enduring spirit; to choose our better history; to carry forward that precious gift, that noble idea, passed on from generation to generation: the God-given promise that all are equal, all are free and all deserve a chance to pursue their full measure of happiness.”

I couldn’t help but think about what the Course says to remember as a prayer declaration of independence, in chapter 4:

The Kingdom is perfectly united and perfectly protected, and the ego will not prevail against it. Amen”…

President Obama began his speech, in my opinion, placing first things first:

“I stand here today humbled by the task before us, grateful for the trust you have bestowed, mindful…”

When I think about today’s lesson: “What I see is a form of vengeance” and associate it with/in context of this conversation given by my brother Obama in his gorgeous commitment delivered world wide yesterday, I see the call to accounting I have assigned myself. Attack thoughts are the reason we see a world of vengeance and they won’t disappear with a new administration. I must consciously claim them; quit looking away. Look straight on at everything; including ideas like guilt, anger, worry, conflict, envy, which I see around me, regardless of how they seem to belong to someone else. They’re mine. Period. I apply the exercise given in the workbook:

“I see only the perishable.

I see nothing that will last.

What I see is a not real.

What I see is a form of vengeance.”

It is time to put away the childish ideas like blaming, complaining, one-uping, bitching and explaining myself. That story is over. No more trying to prove myself or justify my worth, accept it as it was established by God. Anger is never justified in any form! That is what the practice of the workbook is for; uncover, excavate, give over to the Holy Spirit and watch forgiveness dissolve them in the light of love… That’s my experience. It’s a miracle! Period.

There is no other way.

Jesus/Holy Spirit takes it from there. By lesson 31, we are handed our declaration of release: “I am not a victim of the world I see.”  Are we ready?

Here are a few other things Obama said in his address yesterday that I was warmed to unite in:

“On this day, we gather because we have chosen hope over fear, unity of purpose over conflict and discord… On this day, we come to proclaim an end to the petty grievances and false promises, the recriminations and worn out dogmas…”

Now doesn’t that feel familiar? It’s just what I’ve been saying, yes? It is all about forgiving all the discord, conflict, petty grievances and false promises, recriminations and worn out dogmas. Isn’t it. We face ourselves, squarely, each one of us, and stand in a singular purpose for God and then extend our hand…

Here’s what Obama said:

 “…Know that America is a friend of each nation and every man, woman, and child who seeks a future of peace and dignity…What is required of us now is a new era of responsibility -- a recognition, on the part of every American, that we have duties to ourselves, our nation, and the world, duties that we do not grudgingly accept but rather seize gladly, firm in the knowledge that there is nothing so satisfying to the spirit, so defining of our character, than giving our all to a difficult task… So let us mark this day with remembrance, of who we are.”

 Don’t you love that! I do.

He wraps up with a statement of continuity for ‘we the people’, referencing a historical quote: "Let it be told to the future world ... that in the depth of winter, when nothing but hope and virtue could survive...that the city and the country, alarmed at one common danger, came forth to meet (it)."

He then brings it present NOW by finishing with this:

“With hope and virtue, let us brave once more the icy currents, and endure what storms may come. Let it be said by our children's children that when we were tested we refused to let this journey end, that we did not turn back nor did we falter; and with eyes fixed on the horizon and God's grace upon us, we carried forth that great gift of freedom and delivered it safely to future generations.”

In the spirit of continuity, I’ll wrap with this from chapter 21 of A Course in Miracles...

Listen, and try to think if you remember what we will speak of now. Listen, - perhaps you catch a hint of an ancient state not quite forgotten; dim, perhaps, and yet not altogether unfamiliar. Like a song whose name is long forgotten, and the circumstances in which you heard completely unremembered. Not the whole song has stayed with you, but just a little wisp of melody, attached not to a person or a place, or anything particular. But you remember, from just this little part, how lovely was the song, how wonderful the setting where you heard it, and how you loved those who were there, and listened with you.

The notes are nothing; yet you have kept them with you, not for themselves, but as a soft reminder of what would make you weep, if you remembered how dear it was to you. You could remember, yet you are afraid, believing you would lose the world you learned since then. And yet you know that nothing in the world you learned is half so dear as this. Listen, and see if you remember an ancient song you knew so long ago, and held more dear than any melody you taught yourself to cherish since. Beyond the body, beyond the sun and stars, past everything you see and yet somehow familiar, is an arc of golden light that stretches, as you look, into a great and shining circle. And all the circle fills with light before your eyes.

The edges of the circle disappear, and what is in it no longer is contained at all. The light expands and covers everything, extending to infinity, forever shining, and with no break or limit anywhere. Within it, everything is joined in perfect continuity. Nor is it possible to imagine that anything could be outside. For there is nowhere that this light is not. This is the vision of the Son of God, whom you know well. Here is the sight of him who knows his Father. Here is the memory of what you are; a part of this, with all of it within you, and joined to all of it as surely as all is joined to you.”

  I LOVE YOU!

Friday, January 16, 2009

HALF MEASURES AVAILED US NOTHING: WE STOOD AT THE TURNING POINT (from the big book of Alcoholics Anonymous)~

Half measures availed us nothing. We stood at the turning point...

 I love this part in chapter 11 of the text about our thoughts: The world you perceive it cannot have been created by the Father, for the world is not as you see it. God created only the eternal, and everything you see is perishable. Therefore, there must be another world that you do not see…. Every loving thought the Son of God ever had is eternal. The loving thought his mind perceives in this world are the world’s only reality. They are still perceptions, because he still believes that he is separate. Yet they are eternal because they are loving. And being loving they are like the Father, and therefore cannot die. The real world can actually be perceived. Okay, are you ready? Wait for it…

All that is necessary is a willingness to perceive nothing else…

 Here’s where I’m doing business now…

Now this:

Do I want the problem or do I want the answer?

Decide for the answer and you will have it, for you will see it as it is and it is yours already.

Isn’t that awesome!

 

Ya know, it’s interesting to note just how much I like to rest on my laurels…

I said I wanted the whole shebang and that I’d trade in everything I thought I had advanced­ to thus far.

I note that parts of my mind don’t feel they signed on for this. It’s definitely a feeling of out-of–control-ness. Here’s the funny part though, I am witnessing my operating system with a curious, non-attached eye.

 It’s fun to watch my mind try to establish status quo with spiritual platitudes that have given me comfort for many years… while the love-powered light laser is zapping the he!! out of my little familiar little corner of the world. Its’ the disappearance of the universe of my thought system as it stood. and the groovy part is that I feel Jesus beside me. It so rocks!!!

Truth is, the eternal holds me comforted and secure, showing me that trust is warranted ~and all I want.

 I am only light

 Turns out, trust does solve every problem now.

 

Friday, January 9, 2009

PERFECT LOVE CASTS OUT...

I love this:

PERFECT LOVE CASTS OUT FEAR!

It is the answer to ever situation or apparent conflict or confusion that seems to arise.

 Perfect love does cast out fear. Facing my fears is my responsibility. That means looking square on at anything that I resist, even the slightest weariness, cop to it and a fearful aspect of my mind that I am choosing over the Peace of God Now, take responsibility and let the light of love burn… and the miracle do its job… Perfect love casts out every barrier to oneness.

So, if I am willing to look on every situation and person with appreciation, with faith in them and the miracle of perfect love extended... what could possibly be outside my reach... I extend the perfect love of God and see that the false idea dressed up as fear, dissolves in the light of day~ the light of love.

There is a part in chapter 2 of the text that says that as a miracle worker it is my function to look upon everyone with charity. I love this line, “Charity is a way of looking at another as if he had already gone far beyond his actual accomplishments in time.”  

This is the way I am to look at every single situation and person my mind projects. After all, they are my mind. I am responsible.

Here’s what I am noticing. That by extending with the charity that is the always already healed mind through the Atonement, I am simply doing my job as a miracle worker, by merely loving perfectly and letting all things be exactly as they are. I extend love; see the perfection of Christ’s vision by accepting and being happy.

Light~ I love it. ~let it rip!!!

 

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

WHOLLY AS I AM

 I am done with anything half-hearted… LOVE is TOTAL and wholly COMPLETE. Anything that is not Wholehearted is not honest. I’m done with it. Love is my reality. And there I reside.

  I started using blogging as an accountability exercise. I failed a lot. The only thing I seemed interested in consistently writing about was the lessons of A Course in Miracles… 

It’s like somehow, beyond my regular mind, I had made a commitment, and a space was consecrated for me to open my mind and be a vehicle for the Holy Spirit to use and teach me.

I LOVE IT!

Here it is: THE POWER OF DECISION IS MY OWN. (L-152)

We can spend infinite time and effort trying to wake up…and it is a groovy way to do your life; it’s fun, it’s interesting, it feel better than before… I’ve been known to say, “it’s the only game in town” … 

But, that’s just it, isn’t it. “KNOW THYSELF”, is just what it says; “KNOW THYSELF! That’s not the same as get to know thyself. Trust me on this, I know…

WAKE UP NOW! It is a decision. It is determined by choice. The Course tells us plain as day that Heaven is here and now and the light of understanding or enlightenment, takes no time at all. 

It is merely that we cherish time and process. The ego loves the game of accomplishment, yes?

Here’s the thing~ again clearly stated in the Course:

IT HAS ALREADY BEEN ACCOMPLISHED… I but ACCEPT THAT I HAVE ACCEPTED THE ATONEMENT AND IT IS DONE!

So I am totally experiencing the lessons this year from a simple and accepted place... I LOVE IT!

I am constantly amazed at the astounding simplicity of the lessons. I am absolutely loving doing the lessons for the first time; this moment. 

I am the living application of my willingness to be wholly lifted up out of the time/space frequency, and into miracle frequency.

I saddle up, forget every interpretation I have made before, and in that empty space, I let Love write the script. I love it!

Quite profoundly I notice just how unnecessary my old complicated habit of looking for interpretation, understanding and the like… silly really, a delay in time, and tragic... When right there in black and white, the instructions couldn’t be more simple.

 …Didn’t I read the text? It states clearly that the mind that sees the problem (ego) is incapable of understanding anything?

That should make it explicitly easy… I just don’t try!

 I give up!

I let myself be shown!

If I were learning to speak Japanese, I wouldn’t assume I knew anything about the language. I wouldn’t care so much about its origins; as I would it’s practical application and the best possible integration into my mind, so that it could become natural to me to speak it.  

A Course in Miracles is my new language. I have known that it is since the moment I first opened the book. And although recognized it, I knew it would take something far greater than what I was identified with as my self, (my residual self image) to rise above and truly be shown.

I have studied and forgiven and pondered and meditated, prayed and practiced… And I have loved it!

I can say with honesty that I have unlearned a lot, and experienced peace a lot… It is awesome!

I am the living breath of light and Love~

This is my devotion now~

I am as God Created me and that is the only reality I accept.

I deny the denial of truth. I am the truth, way and the life…

I am only light!

I am Love as my Father is Love…I create as my Father.

My mind is one and you are my love…

I put my childish toys away… I will only what God Will’s.

Perfect Happiness is my Will, my function, my life.

I LOVE YOU!!!

 

Saturday, January 3, 2009

As I sat with for a moment in the stillness left from applying today’s lesson, I began to see a metaphorical picture of my mind; a brightly lit room filled with nothingness, just the clear and bright, colorless presence of my thereness. As I real-ized myself, I noticed, a tiny spot seemed to appear in my vision, per se… and I felt love for it, which seemed to invite some sort of compelling desired to look more closely at it. As I did, it seemed a whole set of things happened at once. This dot became like a portal of sorts to the world I seem to live in now with people and things…

At the same time, I began to look about me in the room I where the entry to the portal was, and all around me I saw what looked like a sophisticated computer system that hadn’t seemed to be there before, only the brightness… It totally reminded me of the scene in the Matrix movie where Neo sees ‘the man behind the curtain’, so to speak.

But it was my mind, my matrix, my confused state of unreality…

 Here’s what I’ve noticed. In the world this side of the portal, I find myself compelled by a habitual, repetitive compulsion to diagnose virtually every seemingly new or ‘different’ thing that comes into my life, stamp with approval or disapproval (good or bad), put a label on it, and then package it up nice and neat.

 It then goes into the matrix of my brain where it is stored in the endless microchip collective matrix of my ‘perceived reality… It is run like a computer system design for the sole purpose of never actually having to think at all. Although it appears investigative and analytical, further examination reveals that all these microchips are smoke and mirrors… “I get it. I see it. I understand… disappearing into nothing understandable at all...

 I simply can’t trust the assessments coming from the matrix of my ego mind,

Here’s what I think happens, the second I ‘go toward the light’, and suspend the myness of perception for the bright, clear awareness of light dawning my mind… the ego matrix does a grand reboot and jumps in quick and loud, baring its teeth and attempting to restore its reign...when I forgive and see things in the light, there is no throne for it to occupy… only sameness and love.

Can I stay for the long haul?

 The Course tells us that we what we think we are experiencing is really a backwards replay in our minds through fear to love. So if I’m feeling terrified at times, it is the normal reaction to the rewind experience of being separate and alone. The course also tells me that what I have considered my major successes have been nothing, merely deflection and delay tactics. Where as, what I considered my primary failures have really been my greatest successes.

 I really just don’t know a thing… 

How trippy…. It just keeps getting more fun. I don’t know about you but I sort of look forward to those absolute dis-illusionment moments when I empty out and recognize I don’t know, I don’t understand, and I don’t need to. In fact, my understanding is not required for me to fulfill my function in God’s plan for salvation. It is wholehearted acceptance of the Atonement for myself and my little willingness that opens the way for the Holy Spirit to work through me. As a matter of fact, when I merely follow the way appointed for me, releasing my agendas, the more free, happy and at peace I feel … I simply do not understand anything I see… and maybe that is just right.

 

Friday, January 2, 2009

I AM RESPONSIBLE

When it comes to this world and my perceived life, it simply means for me, what I want it to. I have spent oh, too many wasted hours looking for meaning outside myself both in an effort to find someone/thing to blame, or to tell me what to do, to define my life on or after~ Well, let’s face it. I have looked outside myself to run away from the responsibility for it being exactly as it is for me… in other words: blame.

I hasn’t worked.

And, at the end of the day, in the raw honesty of my own soul, I have been left with the workings of my own mind. It doesn’t matter where I adopted my perceptions, opinions, point of reference. It has all turned out to have a faulty premise as far as what I am in truth, incidentally. Still, the responsibility for all comes back to me.

When I first realized this, I was terrified. I had this subtle, yet profound awareness that I was using most of my life force just trying to manage the denial of this fact~ I am 100% responsibility… Nonetheless, it is the fact!

Facing it sets me free.

“I have given everything I see, all the meaning that it has for me.”

“I am responsible for what I see... I choose the feelings I experience, and I decide upon the goal I would achieve. And everything that seems to happen to me I ask for, and receive as I have asked.”

I LOVE IT!

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

HAPPY NEW YEAR

HAPPY NEW YEAR~ SEE YOU IN THE LIGHT!!! I say good-bye to 2008 and say to you: WELCOME! ~ 
WELCOME TO THE LIGHT! WELCOME HAPPY LEARNER! WELCOME TEACHER OF GOD! WELCOME TO THE FORGIVEN WORLD! WELCOME HOME!!!
 LOVE YOU!!!