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"Simply do this: Be still and lay aside all thoughts of what you are and what God is; all concepts you have learned about the world; all images you hold about yourself. Empty you mind of everything it thinks is either true or false, or good or bad, of every thought it judges worthy, and all the ideas of which it is ashamed. Hold onto nothing. Do not bring with you one thought the past has taught, not one belief you learned before from anthing. Forget this world, forget this course, and come with wholly empty hands unto your God..."



Showing posts with label ministers of God. Show all posts
Showing posts with label ministers of God. Show all posts

Sunday, March 29, 2009

MIND AWAKE~ I LOVE IT!

I highly recommend it. 
Here are a few yummy quotes about being awake, I think you'll love. 
"To see clearly, your mind must be pure and unattached. 
Unless you know yourself well, how can you know another? 
And when you know yourself-~ you are the other". 
"You are the Self, here and now. Leave the mind alone, stand aware and
unconcerned and you will realize that to stand alert but detached,
watching events come and go, is an aspect of your real nature".

"Past and future are in the mind only - I am now".

~Nisaragadatta Maharaj
I LOVE YOU.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

ROAD TRIP~MIRACLES' STYLE

Parker and I are on an adventure. We had a plan. Then, yesterday, seemingly out of the blue, I thought ROAD-TRIP, right now. Off we went. A super yummy thing about the practice of turning ones mind to the Holy Spirit for direction, and then giving up the reins, is that you have sudden shifts into adventurousness, unforeseen till right at the instant it shows up. I try to go with it.

We had this awesome ‘lost in the dark, don’t know where we’re going…itzybit scary moment’ last night~ Then, loud and clear, I thought to call Randi.

 Now, for those of you that don’t know, Randi is the Holy Spirit personal assistant incarnate. Turns out, she can find me clear over near Flagstaff Arizona (going the wrong way) and pick my car up, metaphorically speaking, and deliver it to the Hotel in Flagstaff to stay for the night.

Yep! She’s that good.

We had a totally holy encounter with Sky, the yummy hotel attendant gal, when we checked in. She was a riot. Plus she is reading the fourth Twilight book “Breaking Dawn”. Parker noticed and triggered a great conversation about letting go of old beliefs and ideas about what’s “right or wrong” and trusting that if Love is guiding, we need to shift around it or we will miss the gifts it’s bringing.

So yeah, that was that holy encounter.

I’m writing this from a hotel room in Flagstaff Arizona.~~~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Another day with another view~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

We spent the most awesome evening with my father and his beautiful wife. They are amazing. They are real and holy and honest and engaging~ totally present and available. We shared and experienced each other and the miracles our lives have become.

Catch this! They are alive in the practice of A Course in Miracles. I am lifted up in their presence and the union of our purpose in God’s plan for the salvation of the world.

How lucky am I to have a forgiven and healed holy relationship with this beautiful man, my father. His journey has been as my own. And his humble willingness to share his healing and miracles blesses me with his holiness.

Does it get any better than that? To have your dad healed and forgive you and love you… And, also be in love with A Course in Miracles?

It totally rocks.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Now we are at my mother’s Bed & Breakfast.

Have I mentioned how everything goes my way? Everything, is happening for me… And everyone else…

So, we arrive and there is a boy so much like Parker, they could be twins, bell-hopping for Mama. They totally hit it off. And are having a ball. Which totally leaves me available to hang out with my Mama and sister. It has been an evening of rich sharing, massage and anointing with love. I have burst at the seams with the light of love… It’s awesome.

~So, yeah, I keeps being the most perfect moment ever. That’s just how miracle-living works.

Thank you.

I love you.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

MY SALVATION~ AMAZING GRACE

A friend sent this gorgeous film out (thanks Brian). I remembered it while doing the lesson this morning so please click on the link below and join me in celebrating our salvation:
http://link.brightcove.com/services/link/bcpid271552717/bctid1913313052
I love you.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

NOTHIN' LIKE GRATITUDE TO KEEP MIRACLE-MINDED ATTENTION ON GOD!

God, You are my One Source; my Only Goal, my Purpose and Meaning. May every voice but Yours be still in me. May the Holy Spirit which lights my mind help me remember my only purpose here is the salvation of the world; to  shine with  joy and teach only love, to forgive and see things differently, to give of myself as You give, and to be truly helpful. May I remember to keep the eternal light of Heaven burning brightly, shining forth for all to see and enter here, together, the arc of peace, into the gates of Heaven, now...

This world is false. Whatever the body’s eyes look on is false. It doesn’t matter if it is seemingly ‘good’ or if it seems awful. It’s not real. So there’s no point in trying to ‘fix’ or ‘change’ anything. This is what the Course means by ‘tragic in time’. Trying to affect our peace of mind by manipulating situations, events, people, even thoughts, won’t work. 

The world is false. There is no power in it. It is a projection of images outward from a story in the mind. The script for the story of separation has been written... That instant the Atonement was given. The Atonement undid it in that very instant. When we accept the Atonement for ourself, instantly  the mind is tuned to the frequency of Spirit, now reflecting a corrected version of rhe world story: the forgiven or real world…

So the only choice, the only chance at change in the world, is to let go the world we see in favor of vision. This takes place in the mind. The alignment with Spirit activates the power of the mind to the correction principle, healing miscreation by healing misperception.

So it is to the mind we must go, requesting the Holy Spirit as reinterpreter and guide, surrendering all we thought we knew and forgiving it as false, in favor of the truth.

Everything in the world is designed to take attention away from God.

That is its purpose.

The Miracle is designed to zero attention on God. Accepting our brothers as our saviors, we see we are one Mind of one Spirit, of One Source.

We bring our thinking under Jesus' guidance... A Course in Miracles is His gift to us, which is a commplete thought reversal curriculum that systematically trains our minds to return our attention to God. Through the function of forgiveness of the false, we are literally training our minds on Spirit .. Forgiveness is the most powerful tool at our disposal. It is the fast-track to the peace of Heaven Now.

Forgiveness literally realigns the mind to correction and the miracle can do what it does, collapsing time, visiting charity upon forgiver and forgiven. It virtually lifts us from the structure of time/space we were in before and drops us back in to a healed perspective that it is impossible to measure from within the perspective of the problem, well, because it is a miracle and we simple can’t understand it from within the time/space construct.

So, say for instance, I am on a seemingly direct path to destruction, say with booze, (go figure), or a destructive relationship... You know one.

Then, say I ask for a miracle and give over my life to deity. I literally die to that place and time life. The Holy Spirit picks me up and drops me into a time and space further on in my correction learning curriculum, that is appropriate for healing now. In other words, an experience totally unavailable to me, had I stayed the course I was on without accepting the miracle.  The miracle, the Course tells us, saves ‘thousands of years’ that correction would have taken otherwise.

If you’re ever having trouble coming up with the first item on your gratitude list for the day, start here! You’ve already been graced a thousand years! I love it!

Yes, I said Gratitude List.

One thing I have learned is that making gratitude lists instead of ‘to-do’ lists, gets a lot more accomplish and keeps being truly helpful at the forefront of my mind. Whereas making ‘to-do’ lists accomplishes nothing at all. It is a delay tactic of future-izing the past and making someone, usually myself, feel guilty. I’m sure you know what I mean.

So, how about it? Start making a gratitude list whenever you start thinking you need to make a to-do list. Everything will change. Gratitude places you at the disposal of the miracle. Watch the world eclipse in its light.

 Start here;

1.  I am grateful for God.

2.  I am grateful for the Atonement

3. I am grateful for Jesus

4. I am grateful for A Course in Miracles.

5. I am grateful for willingness

6. I am grateful for the transformation of my mind through forgiveness.

7. I am grateful for my brothers, who witness to Who I am, and that I witness for.

8. I am grateful for peace, now, and love always, in all ways.

9. I am grateful to see my brother guiltless and see his innocence shine.

10. I am grateful, for developing the habit of engaging with God.

11. I am grateful to have God as my only goal.

12. I am grateful I live serenely in a state of deep abiding joy; to live in freedom and happiness and clarity and right-minded willingness.

13. I am grateful to accept my appointment as a teacher of God and count myself amongst the ministers of God and the saviors of the world.

Thank you.

I love you.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

SONSHINE~BLESSED SONSHINE~

SONSHINE~BLESSED SONSHINE~ God is my strength, vision is his gift.

It is a cloudy day here in the world. Yet, I see only light. It’s an inner light I project~ It is the sun of perfect oneness. You might say I see only the Son. I see with the light of forgiveness; a forgiven world.

Here’s where I place my focus as far as my brothers are concerned. Which is, lets face it, everything.

            I am here only to be truly helpful.

            I am here to represent Him Who sent me.

            I do not have to worry about what to say or what to do,

            Because He Who sent will direct me.

I am content to be wherever He wishes,

Knowing He goes there with me.

            I will be healed as I let Him teach me to heal.

 I love it!

It’s really something when you absolutely recognize that your brother, each and every one, no matter what, holds the key to your getting everything you want, to Heaven and the peace of God. I don’t mean ‘getting’ it in conceptual terms, I’m talking about SEEING~ you no longer attempt to order your brothers into hierarchies, you accept them completely, with full gratitude, and accept nothing else. Here a joining so grand takes place, the world is healed, as the mind is healed in the recognition of oneness through purpose. We are miracle-workers. We are the light of the world.

 As we accept only God’s strength we trust and see…  

God is my strength, Vision is His gift 

 Listen to this from chapter 16:

            The recognition of the part as whole, and the of the whole in every part is perfectly natural, for it is the God thinks, and what is natural to Him is natural to you. Wholly natural perception would show you instantly that order of difficulty in miracles is quite impossible, for it involves a contradiction of what miracles mean…

            You have done miracles, but it is quite apparent that you have not done them alone. You have succeeded whenever you have reached another mind and joined with it. When tow minds join as one and share one idea equally, the first link in the awareness of the Sonship as one has been made…

Astonishing, yes? Not really, is it? You are familiar with this experience, aren’t you? I know! Awesome isn’t it!

Now here this, from the same section of the text:

            The Host of God has called to you, and you have heard.

Hear that? You know it’s true. Nothing else will ever substitute again…

            Never again will you be wholly willing not to listen.

Yeah! Believe it. And trust…. Look what it says. This is the YEAR OF JOY! Listen:

            This is a year of joy, in which your listen will increase and peace will grow with its increase. The power of holiness and the weakness of attack are both being brought into your awareness…

              Today, let us resolve together to accept the joyful tidings that disaster is not real and that reality is not disaster. Reality is safe and sure, and wholly kind to everyone and everything.

And here it is; the final say:

            There is no greater love than to accept this and be glad. For love ask only that you be happy, and will give you everything that makes for happiness.

Honestly? Who could ask for anything more?

Happiness!

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

TO PEACE OR NOT TO PEACE: That is the Question~

To peace or not to peace; that is the question…

I love how the thing about doing the Course lessons as daily methodology for life, is you come to see how, every day, each lesson, is always, exactly the best possible guide for your day.

It trains your mind not to think that the day is real.

But rather that you are.

 Haven’t you noticed? If you apply the lesson to whatever is happening, you feel yourself transported from form or the space/time construct and directly into content or mind. And that’s where you find your Self and the Holy Spirit/God construct.

Mind is where the peace is; the joy and happiness as well. Mind is the activating agent of Spirit and Spirit is always, already completion in God.

So I love doing the lessons.

It never gets boring or monotonous. Spirit is always fresh. And I am always brand new.

My life is delivered as a wonder to my mind. Hence, AWESOME!

So, case in point…

You all know how my family just moved to a new and perfect home/location. Well, being as it is a 100 year old home in the historic district, about the first thing I did was call the cable company to make sure we would be able to get cable for internet. (Major part of the family’s world, yes?...) They were awesome, of course, and assured me there was no problem. They told me that there had once been cable there and it would be hooked-up on move-in day. Yeah!

Turns out~ not quite the case. It seems a trench will have to be dug and the cable run underground through the back yard. This is done by a different company. Then the cable company can come back and run it into the house and hook us up....

Awesome, huh~ Perfect chance to see peace instead of the contraction that might have arisen.

So peace it is!

So, I didn’t post yesterday, sending my true communication of peace and love through the constantly reliable air-waves of the Holy Spirit mind-link. Well, you know…I felt your hook-up as well…

Today, I am going over to the library or Starbucks or some place with wi-fi and see what opportunities to heal and teach healing the Holy Spirit has in store for me in my travels.

Everybody just loves to have the opportunity to be helpful and they love to respond with solutions to someone expressing a loving mind, asking for assistance. I can’t wait!

Life is totally an adventure! Thanks for coming with me.

I love you.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

PERSONAL DELUSION OR THE FACE OF CHRIST: The art and science of seeing…

Above all else I want to see this differently.

Here’s my life.

I see things differently. I see them differently than I did yesterday. I see things differently than I did last month, last year, a decade ago, than I did in my childhood.

The question is how open my mind is.

I am in Heaven. Right now.

From here, everything looks basically the same; a bunch of forms shimmering in the light of love.

Then there are the times when I find myself smack-dab in a personal story, and actually believing for a minute that it matters.

The thing about a wholehearted commitment to follow Jesus and learn the skill set of A Course in Miracles is that I am never more than an instant away from recognizing the classroom for what it is. Forgiveness is always at the ready, lighting the back of my mind. I forgive the personal delusion I place in front of the face of Christ and trust vision to reveal the truth.

There is only love. This I know. This world is a world of perception. Period.  There are no classifications; right or wrong, good or bad. They are exactly the same~ false. Only the truth is true. What I perceive doesn’t matter. It is what I perceive with that does. I set the goal at the beginning and decide to look upon the face of Christ.

I love the classroom analogy. I am on a mission from God.  My life is the classroom where I, taking direction from my teacher, apply the lessons to whatever seems to happen. None of it matters. It is a curriculum.

If you don’t take it personally, you can just take direction. Curriculum isn’t personal. It is a means to an end.

Here’s a case in point for you. When I was in college taking psychology courses and learning about diagnosis and mental illness, whatever particular disorder we were learning about, I met the criteria. I began to think, “OMG, I have a borderline personality disorder. I’m totally narcissistic. I am obsessive-compulsive…what the bleep do I think I’m doing becoming a therapist?”

Then my instructor told us that everybody displays some of these characteristics. And I was like, “whew”, and let it go.

See, now that’s all we have to do with the ‘disorder’ we call our personal life, our perceptual world. LISTEN TO OUR INSTRUCTOR and quit taking it personally.

I am only light.

You and I are One Love united in our Creator.

I love you.

Monday, January 26, 2009

FACTORY RESET!

We’re at ‘factory reset’ in the lesson curriculum. That’s techno-speak for starting fresh, clean, empty… restoring your computer to its original settings…

We realize we were blind and now we want to really see... above all else.

The Course is forever practical. The lessons are laid out in parts and stages. Like right now, if you began at the beginning of the year with lesson one.  You’re realizing that you’re basically blind; in your thinking and seeing. Your programming is faulty. Whatever you did this far in your life for perfect peace, failed. Halleluiah! So, recognizing that what you thought you saw didn’t mean anything except the self-serving meaning you gave it. And, that you were wrong in your interpretation…All your exhausting little efforts to keep the game running, crashed.  Instead of winning, you’re dying. You’ve been in denial.

You’re not living. You’re watching a movie of some life that fails over and over. Beneath the movie goggles you’re totally blind.

Above all else I want to see! ~

There’s it is…

FACTORY RESET!

 Above all else I want to see…

I’ve been learning the techno world of computers and cyberspace and the information highway, for the past couple years. It’s been a total trip. It is like being on a different planet. And for years I didn’t think I wanted to travel there.

It was because I was afraid I would fail at it. 

I did.

Oh, sure I told myself lots of lofty reasons why it wasn’t important and didn’t matter. And all of them in one context were true enough. The thing is, I was afraid and I was using these ideas to medicate that fear and justify lack of trust. And the only place to put denial and dishonesty is in the “private thoughts” vault in my mind. And of course that doesn’t really work anymore. It upsets the integrity of my love-based thought system and the lights and sirens start going off…. ‘RESTORE PEACE!  RESTORE PEACE!’

 I love it!

FACTORY RESET!

So, I signed on with cyber-enterprise, and started learning how to use the computer generated communication devise. I ‘m having a ball…

It’s totally fun to see how as soon as I get carried away and forge out on some new venue, I fail at it. Everything crashes and nothing that used to work, works.

 I download more information and programs to help and I just overload my computer’s memory with insignificant crap and that messes with my computer’s stability and ability to function.

FACTORY RESET!

You know what is really awesome.  Everything.

When you see, everything is amazing, awe-some and wonder-ful. 

But that’s not what I was referring to.

My twin bother, Dirk, just contacted me on Skype, which is this very cool way to talk through commuter technology to people anywhere in the world, and/or cyberspace. Dirk hooked me up!

So he is like this enlightened computer/cyber genius/guru. He's been around the block and done the footwork for me. I can simply go to him, follow his instruction and he leads me out of darkness, into the light of understanding and back home to cyber-peace.

I love it! I love him!

This is Jesus!

So, I’m sure you see where this is going. But, for me, I’m going to spell it out.

Life always goes like that, doesn’t it? You’re going along, thinking you’re really getting this living thing down. You’re smarter than the average bear. You’re getting that relationship, house, success or whatever ~ getting spiritual. And BAM! You fail. Or, more often than not, the whole system gets clogged up with right/wrong, scarcity/loss, them and us, fear based ideas. You study success manuals and self-help books and go to another seminar, go to therapy… well you know…

It all fails! You fail! We always, naturally fail in this world. That’s the deal.

I love it.

That is the whole gig. It’s supposed to fail.

Until we recognize our total dependence on God; that His Will for us is perfect happiness, perfect peace, and perfect love, we fail.

Now we can learn.

Ok, so here’s Jesus. He totally hooks us up!!!

He knows me as the Son of God I am. He did the footwork for us. He is always available.

He provides the tools of the trade: A Course in Miracles with detailed instructions. He leads me from crucifixion to resurrection in every aspect of my life; out of darkness of guilt and hatred to the light of forgiveness and understanding, from fear to love, from the hell I made to the Heaven created for me by God, and home to God Himself where I always am…

Above all else…

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

WE THE MINISTERS OF GOD ~LIKE OBAMA AND ME AND YOU…

Isn’t this just the yummiest of moments in so-called time, to be a minister for God; to join ranks with the mighty companions of miracle workers on the journey without distance to the place we never left (God), navigating Love’s waters through fear’s cloudy sky? We just absolutely have to trust Jesus’ instruments to pilot the way, without which we would be lost.

 I love it!

And isn’t if fun to see who shows up to take their place among the ministers…

 "ALL are called but few choose to listen. Therefore, they do not choose RIGHT." The "chosen ones" are merely those who choose right SOONER.

 As I listened to President Obama's inaugural address, yesterday, I was warmed by the sincerity and what I agree to be the accuracy of what faces us as a human race, reaching for the highest in us all as One World ~ One Mind.

A theme of my own this year has been "It is time to put away childish things..." I had to smile when Obama quoted it in his a speech. PERFECT.

He actually said, “We remain a young nation, but in the words of scripture, the time has come to set aside childish things. The time has come to reaffirm our enduring spirit; to choose our better history; to carry forward that precious gift, that noble idea, passed on from generation to generation: the God-given promise that all are equal, all are free and all deserve a chance to pursue their full measure of happiness.”

I couldn’t help but think about what the Course says to remember as a prayer declaration of independence, in chapter 4:

The Kingdom is perfectly united and perfectly protected, and the ego will not prevail against it. Amen”…

President Obama began his speech, in my opinion, placing first things first:

“I stand here today humbled by the task before us, grateful for the trust you have bestowed, mindful…”

When I think about today’s lesson: “What I see is a form of vengeance” and associate it with/in context of this conversation given by my brother Obama in his gorgeous commitment delivered world wide yesterday, I see the call to accounting I have assigned myself. Attack thoughts are the reason we see a world of vengeance and they won’t disappear with a new administration. I must consciously claim them; quit looking away. Look straight on at everything; including ideas like guilt, anger, worry, conflict, envy, which I see around me, regardless of how they seem to belong to someone else. They’re mine. Period. I apply the exercise given in the workbook:

“I see only the perishable.

I see nothing that will last.

What I see is a not real.

What I see is a form of vengeance.”

It is time to put away the childish ideas like blaming, complaining, one-uping, bitching and explaining myself. That story is over. No more trying to prove myself or justify my worth, accept it as it was established by God. Anger is never justified in any form! That is what the practice of the workbook is for; uncover, excavate, give over to the Holy Spirit and watch forgiveness dissolve them in the light of love… That’s my experience. It’s a miracle! Period.

There is no other way.

Jesus/Holy Spirit takes it from there. By lesson 31, we are handed our declaration of release: “I am not a victim of the world I see.”  Are we ready?

Here are a few other things Obama said in his address yesterday that I was warmed to unite in:

“On this day, we gather because we have chosen hope over fear, unity of purpose over conflict and discord… On this day, we come to proclaim an end to the petty grievances and false promises, the recriminations and worn out dogmas…”

Now doesn’t that feel familiar? It’s just what I’ve been saying, yes? It is all about forgiving all the discord, conflict, petty grievances and false promises, recriminations and worn out dogmas. Isn’t it. We face ourselves, squarely, each one of us, and stand in a singular purpose for God and then extend our hand…

Here’s what Obama said:

 “…Know that America is a friend of each nation and every man, woman, and child who seeks a future of peace and dignity…What is required of us now is a new era of responsibility -- a recognition, on the part of every American, that we have duties to ourselves, our nation, and the world, duties that we do not grudgingly accept but rather seize gladly, firm in the knowledge that there is nothing so satisfying to the spirit, so defining of our character, than giving our all to a difficult task… So let us mark this day with remembrance, of who we are.”

 Don’t you love that! I do.

He wraps up with a statement of continuity for ‘we the people’, referencing a historical quote: "Let it be told to the future world ... that in the depth of winter, when nothing but hope and virtue could survive...that the city and the country, alarmed at one common danger, came forth to meet (it)."

He then brings it present NOW by finishing with this:

“With hope and virtue, let us brave once more the icy currents, and endure what storms may come. Let it be said by our children's children that when we were tested we refused to let this journey end, that we did not turn back nor did we falter; and with eyes fixed on the horizon and God's grace upon us, we carried forth that great gift of freedom and delivered it safely to future generations.”

In the spirit of continuity, I’ll wrap with this from chapter 21 of A Course in Miracles...

Listen, and try to think if you remember what we will speak of now. Listen, - perhaps you catch a hint of an ancient state not quite forgotten; dim, perhaps, and yet not altogether unfamiliar. Like a song whose name is long forgotten, and the circumstances in which you heard completely unremembered. Not the whole song has stayed with you, but just a little wisp of melody, attached not to a person or a place, or anything particular. But you remember, from just this little part, how lovely was the song, how wonderful the setting where you heard it, and how you loved those who were there, and listened with you.

The notes are nothing; yet you have kept them with you, not for themselves, but as a soft reminder of what would make you weep, if you remembered how dear it was to you. You could remember, yet you are afraid, believing you would lose the world you learned since then. And yet you know that nothing in the world you learned is half so dear as this. Listen, and see if you remember an ancient song you knew so long ago, and held more dear than any melody you taught yourself to cherish since. Beyond the body, beyond the sun and stars, past everything you see and yet somehow familiar, is an arc of golden light that stretches, as you look, into a great and shining circle. And all the circle fills with light before your eyes.

The edges of the circle disappear, and what is in it no longer is contained at all. The light expands and covers everything, extending to infinity, forever shining, and with no break or limit anywhere. Within it, everything is joined in perfect continuity. Nor is it possible to imagine that anything could be outside. For there is nowhere that this light is not. This is the vision of the Son of God, whom you know well. Here is the sight of him who knows his Father. Here is the memory of what you are; a part of this, with all of it within you, and joined to all of it as surely as all is joined to you.”

  I LOVE YOU!

Sunday, January 18, 2009

ISN’T THAT AWESOME!

My life is awesome. Now, I use this word, awesome, not as in awe of my life, but in awe of the recognition of my Creator. I notice that I keep using the word awesome in my life to describe everything. I use it to answer every call and express every sentiment. It’s like I don’t have an entire repertoire of adjectives at my disposal. But in actuality, what’s happening is that I’m so very grateful to see with the light of love. I am totally in wonder as to what will unfold next in my life; this day or hour, or even moment. On a clear day, you can see forever!!! IT AWESOME!!! I LOVE IT! Having said that, I want to note that I don’t know how it works for you. But boy, darkness creeps up on me, and before I realize it (way before) I’m not in my right mind and I can’t figure out what went wrong. It is astounding how completely complicated perception can make things seem. Now, I know you might be thinking about right now that the first clue should have been the idea that I could figure anything out, let alone ‘what went wrong’… But, for me, denial is surely an old comfortable shoe. Definitely the shoe is completely worn through on the sole and the stitching is falling apart at the seams, but something in my mind doesn’t want to do what it takes to break in a new pair… As painful as it is with all the rubble getting in and the frostbite and all, my mind’s capacity to ignore the facts amazes me… And that lack of presence effects everything. I am not alone in experiencing the effects of my thoughts… I bless everyone in every moment by my presence; my light and love. Or I damn everyone to misery by my lack of presence and regurgitation of the dirge of death… Awake~ I light the world through my right thinking. Asleep~ I see only shadows of nothingness… I am not alone in experiencing the effects of my thoughts. I wanted to talk about this cuz this morning during my meditation and lesson practice time; I began thinking of living in Vegas, and in particular, why it was that I loved living there, and what it was that crystallized my mind to loving it as a place/homestead, so much so that I didn’t want to give it up, even after the body had moved to the new location. And here’s the thing I saw. I gave over my life to God in absolute surrender of the self I’d made; admitting to complete and utter failure as a human being. I accepted whatever came. The miracle literally lifted my mind from form to content. The specifics of my life were completely irrelevant to me~ I wanted only to serve God. I knew I was only here to shine my light. I felt my presence was not only enough, but the essential ingredient in every situation. I associate Vegas with that beautiful time of freedom, light and love. Now here’s where it got tricky… In associating the bright, changeless, eternal presence of love with a time/space element placed my mind at the disposal of lower level or contracted thinking. Before I knew it I was having preferences, judgments and justifications and excuses and then fogging up my mind with denial about the same. And for quite some time I felt pretty darn good... all but for a sort of nagging feeling of off-ness… ‘Like a splinter in my mind’… The thing about making the decision to give your life to God, and listen to His Voice, is that you really can’t hang out in denial that you need forgiveness, for long, without that denial driving you mad. ”As this (the better way) recognition becomes firmly established, it becomes a turning-point. This ultimately reawakens spiritual vision, simultaneously weakening the investment in spiritual sight… “The alternating investment in the two levels of perception is usually experienced as conflict, which can become very acute. But the outcome is as certain as God. Spiritual vision literally cannot see error, and merely looks for the Atonement. All solutions the physical eye seeks dissolve. Spiritual vision looks within and recognizes immediately that the altar has been defiled and needs to be repaired and protected. Perfectly aware of the right defense it passes over all others, looking past error to truth. Because of the strength of its vision, it brings the mind into its service. This re-establishes the power of the mind and makes it increasingly unable to tolerate delay, realizing that it only adds unnecessary pain. As a result, the mind becomes increasingly sensitive to what it would once have regarded as very minor intrusions of discomfort”. So that splinter in my mind started driving me mad. And I recognized a restoration to right mind was needed… After all, “The children of God are entitled to the perfect comfort that comes from perfect trust…” Ahhhhh…. “The basic decision of the miracle-minded is not to wait on time any longer than is necessary. Time can waste as well as be was be wasted". Now here’s how groovy this is: I changed my mind. No more half measures; no more 99% I give 100% of my life to being the light of the world. I dedicate 100% to being a minister for God. I devote 100% of my presence to being truly helpful I accept 100% responsibility for everything. I offer 100% forgiveness. I love you ~100% I quit playing at salvation, and quit playing God and I accept the Atonement for myself~100% The Course tells me that the Holy Spirit needs happy learners… I say sign me up; where and when you will… I trust the means God has appointed… I am not alone in experiencing the effects of my thoughts ISN’T THAT AWESOME!

Saturday, January 17, 2009

WE ARE NOT ALONE...

I am Not Alone…

I am not alone in experiencing the effects of my seeing…

I wonder what this means.

Yeah sure, I think I know in theory, but I’m not looking from theory anymore…

I get it… minds are joined... yeah, yeah…

 The body's eyes always see the old story... the separate stuff... all labeled with particular meaning in tack...designed to not see… perpetuating the lieyeah, so…

What is the meaning that is bestowed in time’s correction, which is my part in the Atonement, right here and now as I come to the lesson with open mind today?

            He leadeth me and knows the way,

which I know not.

            And He would never keep from me

what he would have me learn.

            And so I trust Him to communicate to me

 all that He knows for me…

THERE!

I apply the lesson, practice it as suggested allowing it to penetrate the world that I now appear to see now, and trust… I am the student. He is the guide. He has the big picture, which I see not. He orchestrates the effects of each mind turned toward the miracle for the real world.

I am responsible for my mind. I am not alone in experiencing the effects of my thinking...

I am pure light. I am the Love of God.

This is the new story. Join me here, now… Be the love~ be the Joy of perfect happiness, be the bright light of the ministers of God, with me... It doesn’t take time. That’s just another old story. We are as God created NOW. It’s time to act that way; forgiving everything that shows up on the path of now and keeping the light on!

Try it. You’ll like it.

It’s miraculous how it works. We change our story to love and the world changes with it…

It works! It totally works~ every time! Don’t take my word for it. Take it for checking…and see if you don’t begin to see the world as bright and dazzling as you are being…

Here’s a boost start… Begin with me:

I am here only to be truly helpful. I come as a light, into a world that denied itself everything. I see only the good and the beautiful, as I am the light of the world, bringing peace to every mind through my forgiven sight…

I am perfect happiness.

 And I am not alone…

I love it!

Thursday, January 15, 2009

TRUST MANTRA

I LOVE TRUSTING.

I love being impeccable to my word.

I gave my life to God; said I’d forget everything I taught myself and, be the demonstration of A Course in Miracles.

Here’s how it looks:  I accept the Atonement for myself; do the lessons impeccably~ add nothing, and don’t interfere… I adore this lifestyle. I love every aspect of it…

Wow, mind watching… The thoughts; none of them neutral, are absolutely irreverent. Haven’t you ever noticed that as soon as you ask to learn something, you get more examples of how you DON’T know what you thought you knew? Well, I do.

Today was such a day.

 Here’s how it begins:

“The idea for today is the beginning step in dispelling the belief that that your thoughts have no effects… Everything you see is the result of your thoughts. There is no exception to this fact. Thoughts are not big or little; powerful or weak. They are merely true or false. Those that are true create their own likeness. Those that are false make theirs.”

 That’s the important thing today then, yes? Take the beginning step, don’t say ‘been there, done it’… just step off… take the leap of faith into the unknown and see what Jesus is beaming up…

Key for me is not to attempt to understand or fit what the lesson into my life, but rather my life is the lesson. Practice, practice, practice… this is the only way to become a virtuoso. You can’t understand your way there.  Believe me, I know, I’ve tried it. It is seriously a poor use of denial…

No thought are neutral. All that appears to happen in life is a result of thinking false or fear-based ideas or thinking with God; thoughts that are true and love based.

How do you feel?

Merely practice the lesson, lean back and let the miracle work.

 This is yummy! I love it, from Chapter 14:

 “What cannot happen can have no effects to fear. Be quiet in your faith in Him Who loves you, and would lead you out of insanity. Madness may be you choice, but not your reality. Never forget the Love of God, Who has remembered you. For it is quite impossible that He could ever let His Son drop from the loving Mind wherein he was created, and where his abode was fixed in perfect peace forever…

Say to the Holy Spirit only, “Decide for me,” and it is done.”

 AND IT IS DONE!!!

Ok, here it is detailed out for us dummies, a little further on in the same section:

“Whenever you are in doubt what you should do, think of His Presence in you, and tell yourself this, and only this:

He leadeth me and knows the way, which I know not.

Yet He will never keep me from what he would have me learn.

And so I trust Him to communicate to me all that He knows for me.”

And that’s my new favorite mantra!

 I LOVE IT!