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"Simply do this: Be still and lay aside all thoughts of what you are and what God is; all concepts you have learned about the world; all images you hold about yourself. Empty you mind of everything it thinks is either true or false, or good or bad, of every thought it judges worthy, and all the ideas of which it is ashamed. Hold onto nothing. Do not bring with you one thought the past has taught, not one belief you learned before from anthing. Forget this world, forget this course, and come with wholly empty hands unto your God..."



Showing posts with label miracle worker. Show all posts
Showing posts with label miracle worker. Show all posts

Thursday, March 12, 2009

ROAD TRIP~MIRACLES' STYLE

Parker and I are on an adventure. We had a plan. Then, yesterday, seemingly out of the blue, I thought ROAD-TRIP, right now. Off we went. A super yummy thing about the practice of turning ones mind to the Holy Spirit for direction, and then giving up the reins, is that you have sudden shifts into adventurousness, unforeseen till right at the instant it shows up. I try to go with it.

We had this awesome ‘lost in the dark, don’t know where we’re going…itzybit scary moment’ last night~ Then, loud and clear, I thought to call Randi.

 Now, for those of you that don’t know, Randi is the Holy Spirit personal assistant incarnate. Turns out, she can find me clear over near Flagstaff Arizona (going the wrong way) and pick my car up, metaphorically speaking, and deliver it to the Hotel in Flagstaff to stay for the night.

Yep! She’s that good.

We had a totally holy encounter with Sky, the yummy hotel attendant gal, when we checked in. She was a riot. Plus she is reading the fourth Twilight book “Breaking Dawn”. Parker noticed and triggered a great conversation about letting go of old beliefs and ideas about what’s “right or wrong” and trusting that if Love is guiding, we need to shift around it or we will miss the gifts it’s bringing.

So yeah, that was that holy encounter.

I’m writing this from a hotel room in Flagstaff Arizona.~~~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Another day with another view~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

We spent the most awesome evening with my father and his beautiful wife. They are amazing. They are real and holy and honest and engaging~ totally present and available. We shared and experienced each other and the miracles our lives have become.

Catch this! They are alive in the practice of A Course in Miracles. I am lifted up in their presence and the union of our purpose in God’s plan for the salvation of the world.

How lucky am I to have a forgiven and healed holy relationship with this beautiful man, my father. His journey has been as my own. And his humble willingness to share his healing and miracles blesses me with his holiness.

Does it get any better than that? To have your dad healed and forgive you and love you… And, also be in love with A Course in Miracles?

It totally rocks.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Now we are at my mother’s Bed & Breakfast.

Have I mentioned how everything goes my way? Everything, is happening for me… And everyone else…

So, we arrive and there is a boy so much like Parker, they could be twins, bell-hopping for Mama. They totally hit it off. And are having a ball. Which totally leaves me available to hang out with my Mama and sister. It has been an evening of rich sharing, massage and anointing with love. I have burst at the seams with the light of love… It’s awesome.

~So, yeah, I keeps being the most perfect moment ever. That’s just how miracle-living works.

Thank you.

I love you.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

NOTHIN' LIKE GRATITUDE TO KEEP MIRACLE-MINDED ATTENTION ON GOD!

God, You are my One Source; my Only Goal, my Purpose and Meaning. May every voice but Yours be still in me. May the Holy Spirit which lights my mind help me remember my only purpose here is the salvation of the world; to  shine with  joy and teach only love, to forgive and see things differently, to give of myself as You give, and to be truly helpful. May I remember to keep the eternal light of Heaven burning brightly, shining forth for all to see and enter here, together, the arc of peace, into the gates of Heaven, now...

This world is false. Whatever the body’s eyes look on is false. It doesn’t matter if it is seemingly ‘good’ or if it seems awful. It’s not real. So there’s no point in trying to ‘fix’ or ‘change’ anything. This is what the Course means by ‘tragic in time’. Trying to affect our peace of mind by manipulating situations, events, people, even thoughts, won’t work. 

The world is false. There is no power in it. It is a projection of images outward from a story in the mind. The script for the story of separation has been written... That instant the Atonement was given. The Atonement undid it in that very instant. When we accept the Atonement for ourself, instantly  the mind is tuned to the frequency of Spirit, now reflecting a corrected version of rhe world story: the forgiven or real world…

So the only choice, the only chance at change in the world, is to let go the world we see in favor of vision. This takes place in the mind. The alignment with Spirit activates the power of the mind to the correction principle, healing miscreation by healing misperception.

So it is to the mind we must go, requesting the Holy Spirit as reinterpreter and guide, surrendering all we thought we knew and forgiving it as false, in favor of the truth.

Everything in the world is designed to take attention away from God.

That is its purpose.

The Miracle is designed to zero attention on God. Accepting our brothers as our saviors, we see we are one Mind of one Spirit, of One Source.

We bring our thinking under Jesus' guidance... A Course in Miracles is His gift to us, which is a commplete thought reversal curriculum that systematically trains our minds to return our attention to God. Through the function of forgiveness of the false, we are literally training our minds on Spirit .. Forgiveness is the most powerful tool at our disposal. It is the fast-track to the peace of Heaven Now.

Forgiveness literally realigns the mind to correction and the miracle can do what it does, collapsing time, visiting charity upon forgiver and forgiven. It virtually lifts us from the structure of time/space we were in before and drops us back in to a healed perspective that it is impossible to measure from within the perspective of the problem, well, because it is a miracle and we simple can’t understand it from within the time/space construct.

So, say for instance, I am on a seemingly direct path to destruction, say with booze, (go figure), or a destructive relationship... You know one.

Then, say I ask for a miracle and give over my life to deity. I literally die to that place and time life. The Holy Spirit picks me up and drops me into a time and space further on in my correction learning curriculum, that is appropriate for healing now. In other words, an experience totally unavailable to me, had I stayed the course I was on without accepting the miracle.  The miracle, the Course tells us, saves ‘thousands of years’ that correction would have taken otherwise.

If you’re ever having trouble coming up with the first item on your gratitude list for the day, start here! You’ve already been graced a thousand years! I love it!

Yes, I said Gratitude List.

One thing I have learned is that making gratitude lists instead of ‘to-do’ lists, gets a lot more accomplish and keeps being truly helpful at the forefront of my mind. Whereas making ‘to-do’ lists accomplishes nothing at all. It is a delay tactic of future-izing the past and making someone, usually myself, feel guilty. I’m sure you know what I mean.

So, how about it? Start making a gratitude list whenever you start thinking you need to make a to-do list. Everything will change. Gratitude places you at the disposal of the miracle. Watch the world eclipse in its light.

 Start here;

1.  I am grateful for God.

2.  I am grateful for the Atonement

3. I am grateful for Jesus

4. I am grateful for A Course in Miracles.

5. I am grateful for willingness

6. I am grateful for the transformation of my mind through forgiveness.

7. I am grateful for my brothers, who witness to Who I am, and that I witness for.

8. I am grateful for peace, now, and love always, in all ways.

9. I am grateful to see my brother guiltless and see his innocence shine.

10. I am grateful, for developing the habit of engaging with God.

11. I am grateful to have God as my only goal.

12. I am grateful I live serenely in a state of deep abiding joy; to live in freedom and happiness and clarity and right-minded willingness.

13. I am grateful to accept my appointment as a teacher of God and count myself amongst the ministers of God and the saviors of the world.

Thank you.

I love you.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

PROFESSIONAL FOR GOD

I am a professional.

Atonement is my profession. It comes naturally. Once the desire for specialness has been abated, the communication that is creation is free to take its place. Or rather, to flow unimpeded.

Here’s my job; I accept the atonement for myself. Here’s how I do that. I am simply unwilling to see error in anyone including myself. Here’s where I join with Jesus. It’s a correction crusade. And it rocks! ~You can join~

By refusing to see error, a whole new world opens up before me. Everyone I see is like my favorite long lost aunt that I can't wait to catch-up with. So I treat these encounters with a level of respect and open-hearted acceptance that l learned from Jesus and how he has refused to accept my little opinion of myself, but rather relating to the magnitude in me. This is what I extend.

I teach only what I want to learn, so I teach only the love that I am and you are.

I see miracles happening everywhere. Where I used to see conflict between brothers, I now see the call for love and the opportunity for a miracle. I look to the spark of light within each brother and join them there, blazing the light with healing love… My holiness blesses them.

Whether or not they recognize this act of love is not my concern, healing my mind through seeing their innocence which is my own, is…. Forgiveness happens… “A miracle is a universal blessing from God through me to all my brothers. It is the privilege of the forgiven to forgive.”

I hung out in confusion for a long time; waiting for some miraculous event that would restore me to sanity. I studied the Course, prayed, meditated, did the lessons… But I still measured Heaven from a definition that placed it outside myself. Something that would happen “to” me once I was ‘good’ enough... It's all good...

Obviously, I didn’t see the trap this was; looping me back into the separation construct. 

Till I did. I decided for happiness, truth, love, the peace of God.

Here’s the thing. Up till then, because I didn’t want to be in denial or be wearing rose-colored glasses, I kept reinforcing the belief in error by continuing to see it, judge my progress by it, then forgive.

Yes, I found relief. Yes, I felt better. However, I was making error real by claiming it, then forgiving... That is not looking past the error in acceptance of its falseness. .

See the conflict?

That’s a split mind. The Course is accepted completely, or not at all. It says if we aren’t experiencing constant joy, we have not decided for happiness, because happiness is a state of constancy.

I took Jesus as my coach.

He told me, “Deny the denial of truth”. He said, “Recognize your errors and choose to abandon them and follow my guidance.”

There! Clear as day! Recognize my errors and choose to abandon them and follow Him…

I finally listened. I abandon error in favor of truth.

“Forgiveness recognizes that what you thought your brother did to you has not occurred. It does not pardon sins and make them real. It sees there was no sin. And in that view, are all your sins forgiven… Forgiveness merely sees its falsity, and therefore lets it go. What then is free to take its place is now the Will of God.”

I was coached in-spirit to be happy and that joy was a better environment for learning than pain. I was already totally familiar with the contrast, I don't need any more lessons through pain. When I am dis-heartened or dis-spirited I have suspended my usefulness until I change my mind and Think with the Joy of Love.

Ya know, when you accept the Atonement as your profession. And you take the oath of office as a miracle worker, there are certain guidelines you follow.

  1. TRUST; trust your brother, trust the Holy Spirit, trust Jesus’ guidance, trust God.
  2. Do no harm.
  3. Be happy.
  4. Be truly helpful.
  5. Be grateful.
  6. Be honest.
  7. Forgive and see your brother innocence.

 

“Spirit is in a state of grace forever.

Your reality is only spirit.

Therefore you are in a state of grace forever.”

 

THANK YOU.

I LOVE YOU.

Monday, February 16, 2009

THOSE WHO ARE CERTAIN OF THE OUTCOME CAN AFFORD TO WAIT, AND WAIT WITHOUT ANXIETY.

PATIENCE IS NATURAL TO THE TEACHER OF GOD... Blessings everyone! Thanks for hangin’ out while the internet miracle-working has been going on. It’s been fun to watch.

 Apparently, our minds are healed, cuz we have lift- off!

I LOVE IT!

I LOVE YOU!

The Song of Prayer, all of which is so beautiful, comes to mind. Here is the passage running through my mind right now:

 “The secret of true prayer is to forget the things you think you need… in prayer you overlook you specific needs as you see them, and let them go into God’s Hands. There they become your gifts to Him, for they tell Him that you would have no gods before Him; no love but His. What could his answer be but your remembrance of Him? Can this be traded for a bit of trifling advice about a problem of an instant’s duration? God answers only for eternity. But still all little answers are contained in this… there is nothing to ask because there is nothing left to want.”

Isn’t that so yummy! That is the zero point of perfect peace and all of the recent lessons have been leading us to the mind-trust-fall into it: this moment, the present moment, the only one~ the presence of God. It is the joyous totality of now, where form is irrelevant. It has been replaced with the certainty of love’s inevitability.

I love keeping it simple.

I am the light of the world.

Whatever is happening is for the purpose of saving the world.

Why resist? Love is … Recognition of this one fact is inevitable.

To read commentaries on the lessons from the past few days, just click on the lesson found in the archive section on the side panel. That should take you there…

 I love you

Sunday, February 1, 2009

MOVIN' IN JOY~THE NEW PERSPECTIVE

Love is only perspective that gives happiness. Because it is the joyful perspective.

God’s Will for us is perfect happiness. What does not bring joy, is not of God.

The ego, or the joyless perspective is not seeing at all. It is the addictive regurgitation of the separation, and attack God and on ourselves.

Let me give a common example. 

You’re driving down the freeway and singing away to ‘The Beatles’, say. Traffic starts to slow… things start feeling like slow motion. You can see flashing ambulance lights.

What do you do?

Let’s be honest here.

Do you start getting agitated, feeling personally violated, blaming whatever driver that seems the slowest and unconscious? Does a little gory fascination fantasy start running in your mind, wondering how many people got hurt and how bad~ sorta looking forward to checking it out?

… That’s how the ego operated. It’s got the personality on rote. This keeps us from seeing what’s really going on. Keep us from checking with our Source as to what is going on. What it is for and how we could be helpful.

What’s going on is a call for love and healing. This could look a lot of different ways in form. We are looking to content now. The form is not what’s real here. The unification of the purpose of love is.

Do you check within at your love wheel as to how you can be helpful? Do you see the slowing in traffic as more time with ‘The Beatles’ and sing away? Do you bless all the drivers with love and smiles?  Do you trust your brothers and the Holy Spirit and forgive any contractions that arise?

There is another way of looking at the world…

Today is moving day for my family and me. We’ve been having a ball.

The whole experience has been a witness for me of a shift in perspective.

As I have said here before, I was resisting living where I am and allowed a preference to live somewhere else to fog my mind. I could tell by the way I felt that my premise for viewing was off. I felt listless and living in limbo… the raging joy was missing.

Once I saw it for the detour into hell that it was, I CHANGED MY MIND!

The world changed with it! The world literally shifted on its axis and everyone in it shifted…

I found this absolutely perfect yummy house in just the perfect location. Everyone in the family loves it! From there, everything has gone like clockwork. It’s awesome! The boys said that doing the whole move thing was like being on a TV show like survivor or amazing race…

Love and a unified purpose of joy is fueling it.

There is another way of looking at the world…

Thank you.

I love you.

Monday, January 26, 2009

FACTORY RESET!

We’re at ‘factory reset’ in the lesson curriculum. That’s techno-speak for starting fresh, clean, empty… restoring your computer to its original settings…

We realize we were blind and now we want to really see... above all else.

The Course is forever practical. The lessons are laid out in parts and stages. Like right now, if you began at the beginning of the year with lesson one.  You’re realizing that you’re basically blind; in your thinking and seeing. Your programming is faulty. Whatever you did this far in your life for perfect peace, failed. Halleluiah! So, recognizing that what you thought you saw didn’t mean anything except the self-serving meaning you gave it. And, that you were wrong in your interpretation…All your exhausting little efforts to keep the game running, crashed.  Instead of winning, you’re dying. You’ve been in denial.

You’re not living. You’re watching a movie of some life that fails over and over. Beneath the movie goggles you’re totally blind.

Above all else I want to see! ~

There’s it is…

FACTORY RESET!

 Above all else I want to see…

I’ve been learning the techno world of computers and cyberspace and the information highway, for the past couple years. It’s been a total trip. It is like being on a different planet. And for years I didn’t think I wanted to travel there.

It was because I was afraid I would fail at it. 

I did.

Oh, sure I told myself lots of lofty reasons why it wasn’t important and didn’t matter. And all of them in one context were true enough. The thing is, I was afraid and I was using these ideas to medicate that fear and justify lack of trust. And the only place to put denial and dishonesty is in the “private thoughts” vault in my mind. And of course that doesn’t really work anymore. It upsets the integrity of my love-based thought system and the lights and sirens start going off…. ‘RESTORE PEACE!  RESTORE PEACE!’

 I love it!

FACTORY RESET!

So, I signed on with cyber-enterprise, and started learning how to use the computer generated communication devise. I ‘m having a ball…

It’s totally fun to see how as soon as I get carried away and forge out on some new venue, I fail at it. Everything crashes and nothing that used to work, works.

 I download more information and programs to help and I just overload my computer’s memory with insignificant crap and that messes with my computer’s stability and ability to function.

FACTORY RESET!

You know what is really awesome.  Everything.

When you see, everything is amazing, awe-some and wonder-ful. 

But that’s not what I was referring to.

My twin bother, Dirk, just contacted me on Skype, which is this very cool way to talk through commuter technology to people anywhere in the world, and/or cyberspace. Dirk hooked me up!

So he is like this enlightened computer/cyber genius/guru. He's been around the block and done the footwork for me. I can simply go to him, follow his instruction and he leads me out of darkness, into the light of understanding and back home to cyber-peace.

I love it! I love him!

This is Jesus!

So, I’m sure you see where this is going. But, for me, I’m going to spell it out.

Life always goes like that, doesn’t it? You’re going along, thinking you’re really getting this living thing down. You’re smarter than the average bear. You’re getting that relationship, house, success or whatever ~ getting spiritual. And BAM! You fail. Or, more often than not, the whole system gets clogged up with right/wrong, scarcity/loss, them and us, fear based ideas. You study success manuals and self-help books and go to another seminar, go to therapy… well you know…

It all fails! You fail! We always, naturally fail in this world. That’s the deal.

I love it.

That is the whole gig. It’s supposed to fail.

Until we recognize our total dependence on God; that His Will for us is perfect happiness, perfect peace, and perfect love, we fail.

Now we can learn.

Ok, so here’s Jesus. He totally hooks us up!!!

He knows me as the Son of God I am. He did the footwork for us. He is always available.

He provides the tools of the trade: A Course in Miracles with detailed instructions. He leads me from crucifixion to resurrection in every aspect of my life; out of darkness of guilt and hatred to the light of forgiveness and understanding, from fear to love, from the hell I made to the Heaven created for me by God, and home to God Himself where I always am…

Above all else…

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

WE THE MINISTERS OF GOD ~LIKE OBAMA AND ME AND YOU…

Isn’t this just the yummiest of moments in so-called time, to be a minister for God; to join ranks with the mighty companions of miracle workers on the journey without distance to the place we never left (God), navigating Love’s waters through fear’s cloudy sky? We just absolutely have to trust Jesus’ instruments to pilot the way, without which we would be lost.

 I love it!

And isn’t if fun to see who shows up to take their place among the ministers…

 "ALL are called but few choose to listen. Therefore, they do not choose RIGHT." The "chosen ones" are merely those who choose right SOONER.

 As I listened to President Obama's inaugural address, yesterday, I was warmed by the sincerity and what I agree to be the accuracy of what faces us as a human race, reaching for the highest in us all as One World ~ One Mind.

A theme of my own this year has been "It is time to put away childish things..." I had to smile when Obama quoted it in his a speech. PERFECT.

He actually said, “We remain a young nation, but in the words of scripture, the time has come to set aside childish things. The time has come to reaffirm our enduring spirit; to choose our better history; to carry forward that precious gift, that noble idea, passed on from generation to generation: the God-given promise that all are equal, all are free and all deserve a chance to pursue their full measure of happiness.”

I couldn’t help but think about what the Course says to remember as a prayer declaration of independence, in chapter 4:

The Kingdom is perfectly united and perfectly protected, and the ego will not prevail against it. Amen”…

President Obama began his speech, in my opinion, placing first things first:

“I stand here today humbled by the task before us, grateful for the trust you have bestowed, mindful…”

When I think about today’s lesson: “What I see is a form of vengeance” and associate it with/in context of this conversation given by my brother Obama in his gorgeous commitment delivered world wide yesterday, I see the call to accounting I have assigned myself. Attack thoughts are the reason we see a world of vengeance and they won’t disappear with a new administration. I must consciously claim them; quit looking away. Look straight on at everything; including ideas like guilt, anger, worry, conflict, envy, which I see around me, regardless of how they seem to belong to someone else. They’re mine. Period. I apply the exercise given in the workbook:

“I see only the perishable.

I see nothing that will last.

What I see is a not real.

What I see is a form of vengeance.”

It is time to put away the childish ideas like blaming, complaining, one-uping, bitching and explaining myself. That story is over. No more trying to prove myself or justify my worth, accept it as it was established by God. Anger is never justified in any form! That is what the practice of the workbook is for; uncover, excavate, give over to the Holy Spirit and watch forgiveness dissolve them in the light of love… That’s my experience. It’s a miracle! Period.

There is no other way.

Jesus/Holy Spirit takes it from there. By lesson 31, we are handed our declaration of release: “I am not a victim of the world I see.”  Are we ready?

Here are a few other things Obama said in his address yesterday that I was warmed to unite in:

“On this day, we gather because we have chosen hope over fear, unity of purpose over conflict and discord… On this day, we come to proclaim an end to the petty grievances and false promises, the recriminations and worn out dogmas…”

Now doesn’t that feel familiar? It’s just what I’ve been saying, yes? It is all about forgiving all the discord, conflict, petty grievances and false promises, recriminations and worn out dogmas. Isn’t it. We face ourselves, squarely, each one of us, and stand in a singular purpose for God and then extend our hand…

Here’s what Obama said:

 “…Know that America is a friend of each nation and every man, woman, and child who seeks a future of peace and dignity…What is required of us now is a new era of responsibility -- a recognition, on the part of every American, that we have duties to ourselves, our nation, and the world, duties that we do not grudgingly accept but rather seize gladly, firm in the knowledge that there is nothing so satisfying to the spirit, so defining of our character, than giving our all to a difficult task… So let us mark this day with remembrance, of who we are.”

 Don’t you love that! I do.

He wraps up with a statement of continuity for ‘we the people’, referencing a historical quote: "Let it be told to the future world ... that in the depth of winter, when nothing but hope and virtue could survive...that the city and the country, alarmed at one common danger, came forth to meet (it)."

He then brings it present NOW by finishing with this:

“With hope and virtue, let us brave once more the icy currents, and endure what storms may come. Let it be said by our children's children that when we were tested we refused to let this journey end, that we did not turn back nor did we falter; and with eyes fixed on the horizon and God's grace upon us, we carried forth that great gift of freedom and delivered it safely to future generations.”

In the spirit of continuity, I’ll wrap with this from chapter 21 of A Course in Miracles...

Listen, and try to think if you remember what we will speak of now. Listen, - perhaps you catch a hint of an ancient state not quite forgotten; dim, perhaps, and yet not altogether unfamiliar. Like a song whose name is long forgotten, and the circumstances in which you heard completely unremembered. Not the whole song has stayed with you, but just a little wisp of melody, attached not to a person or a place, or anything particular. But you remember, from just this little part, how lovely was the song, how wonderful the setting where you heard it, and how you loved those who were there, and listened with you.

The notes are nothing; yet you have kept them with you, not for themselves, but as a soft reminder of what would make you weep, if you remembered how dear it was to you. You could remember, yet you are afraid, believing you would lose the world you learned since then. And yet you know that nothing in the world you learned is half so dear as this. Listen, and see if you remember an ancient song you knew so long ago, and held more dear than any melody you taught yourself to cherish since. Beyond the body, beyond the sun and stars, past everything you see and yet somehow familiar, is an arc of golden light that stretches, as you look, into a great and shining circle. And all the circle fills with light before your eyes.

The edges of the circle disappear, and what is in it no longer is contained at all. The light expands and covers everything, extending to infinity, forever shining, and with no break or limit anywhere. Within it, everything is joined in perfect continuity. Nor is it possible to imagine that anything could be outside. For there is nowhere that this light is not. This is the vision of the Son of God, whom you know well. Here is the sight of him who knows his Father. Here is the memory of what you are; a part of this, with all of it within you, and joined to all of it as surely as all is joined to you.”

  I LOVE YOU!

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

I CAN SEE CLEARLY NOW~ THE RAIN IS GONE…

Whatever shows up in my life; persons, situations, events, circumstances, show up exactly as they do for a reason. It does so because I have within me, the answer of highest good which each person involved is capable of at the moment. This is the life of the miracle worker. Today’s lesson is: I am determined to see things differently. It works. It shifts the world as you know it. I am living this paradigm shift on a daily basis. I am a living demonstration. What once I would have met with frustration, I am now meeting with wonder and curiosity. Isn’t that something? It is because of an uncompromising decision to see differently. It’s funny ~I mean, I'm right here, laughing about this. 
I see that I don’t have to make any decisions about anything. In fact, I really can’t. I determined to see differently and I what I receive is the clear picture of what to do next each circumstance that arises. The course tells us that we will be shown very specifically what to do and where to go, the moment it is needed so that time isn’t relevant. That’s the miracle in action. Yah! I shine brightly as the light of the world. This is the way I pay it forward for the gratitude I have and will have for perfect guidance in whatever circumstance and wherever He would have me be.
 I set forth the faith that I am here only to be truly helpful, and trust. 
So I am certain that whatever shows up, that’s what I’m there for. I feel/breathe the surety of exactly what the miracle-workers creed in chapter 2 of the text states. Here it is: I am here only to be truly helpful I am to represent Him Who sent me. I do not have to worry about what to say or what to do, because He who sent me will direct me. I am content to be wherever He wishes, knowing He goes there with me. I will be healed as I let Him teach me to heal.
I will there be light, and I shine... My face beams with welcome. After all Jesus is right there beside me, coaching my every thought...I love it!
I LOVE YOU! THANKS!

Sunday, January 18, 2009

ISN’T THAT AWESOME!

My life is awesome. Now, I use this word, awesome, not as in awe of my life, but in awe of the recognition of my Creator. I notice that I keep using the word awesome in my life to describe everything. I use it to answer every call and express every sentiment. It’s like I don’t have an entire repertoire of adjectives at my disposal. But in actuality, what’s happening is that I’m so very grateful to see with the light of love. I am totally in wonder as to what will unfold next in my life; this day or hour, or even moment. On a clear day, you can see forever!!! IT AWESOME!!! I LOVE IT! Having said that, I want to note that I don’t know how it works for you. But boy, darkness creeps up on me, and before I realize it (way before) I’m not in my right mind and I can’t figure out what went wrong. It is astounding how completely complicated perception can make things seem. Now, I know you might be thinking about right now that the first clue should have been the idea that I could figure anything out, let alone ‘what went wrong’… But, for me, denial is surely an old comfortable shoe. Definitely the shoe is completely worn through on the sole and the stitching is falling apart at the seams, but something in my mind doesn’t want to do what it takes to break in a new pair… As painful as it is with all the rubble getting in and the frostbite and all, my mind’s capacity to ignore the facts amazes me… And that lack of presence effects everything. I am not alone in experiencing the effects of my thoughts… I bless everyone in every moment by my presence; my light and love. Or I damn everyone to misery by my lack of presence and regurgitation of the dirge of death… Awake~ I light the world through my right thinking. Asleep~ I see only shadows of nothingness… I am not alone in experiencing the effects of my thoughts. I wanted to talk about this cuz this morning during my meditation and lesson practice time; I began thinking of living in Vegas, and in particular, why it was that I loved living there, and what it was that crystallized my mind to loving it as a place/homestead, so much so that I didn’t want to give it up, even after the body had moved to the new location. And here’s the thing I saw. I gave over my life to God in absolute surrender of the self I’d made; admitting to complete and utter failure as a human being. I accepted whatever came. The miracle literally lifted my mind from form to content. The specifics of my life were completely irrelevant to me~ I wanted only to serve God. I knew I was only here to shine my light. I felt my presence was not only enough, but the essential ingredient in every situation. I associate Vegas with that beautiful time of freedom, light and love. Now here’s where it got tricky… In associating the bright, changeless, eternal presence of love with a time/space element placed my mind at the disposal of lower level or contracted thinking. Before I knew it I was having preferences, judgments and justifications and excuses and then fogging up my mind with denial about the same. And for quite some time I felt pretty darn good... all but for a sort of nagging feeling of off-ness… ‘Like a splinter in my mind’… The thing about making the decision to give your life to God, and listen to His Voice, is that you really can’t hang out in denial that you need forgiveness, for long, without that denial driving you mad. ”As this (the better way) recognition becomes firmly established, it becomes a turning-point. This ultimately reawakens spiritual vision, simultaneously weakening the investment in spiritual sight… “The alternating investment in the two levels of perception is usually experienced as conflict, which can become very acute. But the outcome is as certain as God. Spiritual vision literally cannot see error, and merely looks for the Atonement. All solutions the physical eye seeks dissolve. Spiritual vision looks within and recognizes immediately that the altar has been defiled and needs to be repaired and protected. Perfectly aware of the right defense it passes over all others, looking past error to truth. Because of the strength of its vision, it brings the mind into its service. This re-establishes the power of the mind and makes it increasingly unable to tolerate delay, realizing that it only adds unnecessary pain. As a result, the mind becomes increasingly sensitive to what it would once have regarded as very minor intrusions of discomfort”. So that splinter in my mind started driving me mad. And I recognized a restoration to right mind was needed… After all, “The children of God are entitled to the perfect comfort that comes from perfect trust…” Ahhhhh…. “The basic decision of the miracle-minded is not to wait on time any longer than is necessary. Time can waste as well as be was be wasted". Now here’s how groovy this is: I changed my mind. No more half measures; no more 99% I give 100% of my life to being the light of the world. I dedicate 100% to being a minister for God. I devote 100% of my presence to being truly helpful I accept 100% responsibility for everything. I offer 100% forgiveness. I love you ~100% I quit playing at salvation, and quit playing God and I accept the Atonement for myself~100% The Course tells me that the Holy Spirit needs happy learners… I say sign me up; where and when you will… I trust the means God has appointed… I am not alone in experiencing the effects of my thoughts ISN’T THAT AWESOME!

Friday, January 16, 2009

HALF MEASURES AVAILED US NOTHING: WE STOOD AT THE TURNING POINT (from the big book of Alcoholics Anonymous)~

Half measures availed us nothing. We stood at the turning point...

 I love this part in chapter 11 of the text about our thoughts: The world you perceive it cannot have been created by the Father, for the world is not as you see it. God created only the eternal, and everything you see is perishable. Therefore, there must be another world that you do not see…. Every loving thought the Son of God ever had is eternal. The loving thought his mind perceives in this world are the world’s only reality. They are still perceptions, because he still believes that he is separate. Yet they are eternal because they are loving. And being loving they are like the Father, and therefore cannot die. The real world can actually be perceived. Okay, are you ready? Wait for it…

All that is necessary is a willingness to perceive nothing else…

 Here’s where I’m doing business now…

Now this:

Do I want the problem or do I want the answer?

Decide for the answer and you will have it, for you will see it as it is and it is yours already.

Isn’t that awesome!

 

Ya know, it’s interesting to note just how much I like to rest on my laurels…

I said I wanted the whole shebang and that I’d trade in everything I thought I had advanced­ to thus far.

I note that parts of my mind don’t feel they signed on for this. It’s definitely a feeling of out-of–control-ness. Here’s the funny part though, I am witnessing my operating system with a curious, non-attached eye.

 It’s fun to watch my mind try to establish status quo with spiritual platitudes that have given me comfort for many years… while the love-powered light laser is zapping the he!! out of my little familiar little corner of the world. Its’ the disappearance of the universe of my thought system as it stood. and the groovy part is that I feel Jesus beside me. It so rocks!!!

Truth is, the eternal holds me comforted and secure, showing me that trust is warranted ~and all I want.

 I am only light

 Turns out, trust does solve every problem now.